Mature

Exams coming up in just two weeks more.But,here I am knocking on the keyboard

to type on new post. ( Don't follow this peeps )

Well, occasionally, there's really lots of going round and round my mind. 

( aihhh ) I can't just seems to do things any better than I did before.

Why oh why?? (keep on questioning)

But, then. My fiancee stood me up when he said I'm mature than before.

Well, literally. I can't seems to understand what he said.

( It's the old man thoughts speaking peeps. haha )

Now, suddenly it pop out my mind what he said to me before.

I guess that's why I can't seems to do things like I'm used to before.

Because back then ways I'm interpreting things and doing things in my life

were different than how I am now.

So foolish of me thinking I can do the same things like I'm used to.

I'm still growing up. I mean who does isn't it??

But, what I'm trying to say here is from our emotional and mind aspects.

This determine how we do works now which way differ than we used to when

like years ago.

Reminiscing the changes I've made. I guess it is.

It changed how me faced and deals things

It's not like I'm being hypocrite, not being myself, this just a change for something better.

Insha Allah. ( pray for me and you also! amin)

Well, it's always sweet to know someone paying every little things bout you.

It do flutters you. And, make you up above the roofs.

So, I'm approved. There's a proverb said,

 " A compliment can even makes whales dance "

Yeah. Imagining how the whale dance, makes me giggles.

But, here when his-old-man-kind-of-mind speaks to me. Its sweeps me off my feet.

Shows me that its wrong to have that kind of thoughts.

Thinking I can't do it anymore when the facts is I can.

It just I have new ways of doing things now. Yeahhhh!!!!

( wonder woman in me speaks )

I just have to enjoy and moves forward instead of clinging on the past me.

I just have to be done to past-me and strolling out new roads of new me.

Discovering the worlds, the thoughts, the adventures that awaits me

Embarks on new journey with this wonderful man by my side. Insha Allah.

He'll be the one whom guides me after this.

And praying Allah always care of my beloved parents and also his as what they care for both of us.

Amin.

Clingy

Things going smoothly since my last post on January.

 Oh my!! Now it's May already. What did I do to myself for the time being. haha!!

I'm back in Malaysia end of January for my winter break coz someone asked me to and 

of course I would be glad to spend time with him. Who don't isn't it?? 

With your fiance, especially when we being part for months.

That's absolutely a chance you'll never let it go. 

I'm quickly make up my mind when he said want me to go back. haha

Well Mr. you've got yourself a clingy fiancee ( thousands clap)

I admit, being far from him, it's really really really tough.

 (see just to bold the tough I've faced, I've to say the word really sooo many times)

Well, I'm pretty clingy to him I admit. Want to be with him all the time if I can.

Just rang off the video call with him on wechat, I already sent him whatssap saying that, 

" I miss you sayang". haha! Now , you tell me how am I have to survive after married later??

It's going to be another tough things to face.

I'm pretty much sure if I'm not pursuing my medical degree right now

And pursue other courses, without second thoughts would quit my job and be full housewife.

That's how I love him, always want to be by his side. Accompany him during long hours of drive

Massage his back of neck if he sleepy anytime, feed him food when we eat, 

Miss his tease on me every time he can when I'm with him. (well,that's a lot actually)

His care,his worried face when I'm sick. His effort to make me happy everytime.

His efforts to give me everythings I want. 

Erm. I think I should asked for Louboutin pump then, haha!!

(in your dreams, Nadia)

But, I think Giusippe Zanotti wedges possible. haha!!

Oh myyyyy!! I'm just missing him soooo much!!!

If I can, I would always want to hold his arms and hands all the time.

Walk by his side everywhere he goes, Sleep in his arms everynight.

I hope he noticed already he got himself quite a clingy fiancee.

But, he still loves me. Wow!!That's just makes me loves him more. 

Till then, focus on final . Then, WEDDING coming up. May Allah ease and bless everything.

Insha Allah. Amin.