~4th Year~

Peace upon you all, Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah. Though heavy storm been pouring my journey of 3rd year in medicine faculty, I manage to succeed on to the next step of 4th year. Old days, about 3 years ago around 2010, looking at seniors who had been in my place right now, I envy them. Well, that time, 4th year seems so far for us. But, all praises to Allah The Merciful because He ease my journey till now and I'm praying for another 2 years more to complete my degree also with ease and flying colours. Insha Allah. Amin.

Starting my 4th year late. Spending more time in Malaysia. haha. And just recovered from fever and recurringly asthma attack due to weather change. Alhamdulillah. Now, I'm healthy as a horse. There's a proverb or an idiom says that, " An apple a day keeps the doctor away". What should I do?? I have to meet them all days during classes. I mean I'm a medicine students. Thus, it is legit that I don't want to keep them away. Moreover, I'm not very fond of apple. I don't know why. But, it just don't fit my taste bud.

I've got about 4-5 subjects this year. ENT ( ear,nose and throat), Ophthalmology
( study of eyes ), Forensic, Toxicology and last but not least Community Medicine. So far for me, ophthalmology is in my gene. I can say it like that because its interesting and I'm enjoying the class and also with forensic and toxicology. That's because I think its fascinating when all the CSI and Bone series that I've been watching since ages now makes sense. Funny isn't it??. Community Medicine or the acronym is 'commed' quite bored because I've to deal back with the calculator and calculus where as the main reason I took medicine is to avoid all that. Pity me. Luckily just the normal stuff about variance,mean and etc.

The main obstacle for me now is ENT. The doctors who has been teaching were quite uninteresting. Though, there are few of them, I'm enjoying their classes. But, when it comes to see the patients, I don't know, look into someone's ear makes me tingling all over. I rather seeing patient's with eye problems rather than ear and nose. Have to overcome this. Been trying and praying to do so. So, I guess that's all for now about my early journey for 4th year and I've got mid term examination and praying for me, Umie Nadiah Shalahuddin to do well and excellent. Insha Allah. Amin. Till then, xoxo.

Waalaikumussalam. 

P.I.S.A

Peace be upon you all, Assalamulaikum.

P.I.S.A?? Well, I think most of you know what it means. Its "Playboy Itu Suami Aku". Nau'zubillah himin zalik. Well. Most of malaysian knew this story is about Raja Adrian Benjamin who being a playboy and being called as 'King Crocodile'. He'll be married to Afyna Aulia who in this story being described as decent and modest.

That's the rough main story line. I think you people knew it better than me as I'm not in Malaysia and not really into this drama. The thing I want to say here is the story being watched by all groups of ages and there are certain parts I think is not really appropriate for children. I don't know whether this kind of culture do exist in our Malaysian culture. If you've been following this story, you knew Ad is kind of social, I mean in and out hotel with women and all. Well I can still accept if he just being a playboy but that kind of thing for me is too much.

Pardon me if you think I'm a bit conventional. But,still I can't accept this. For children especially, they did not think much about this. Be truth people, during your primary school. Did you really think whether it is good or bad to do something?? Especially for muslim. It's one of "dosa besar". Nauzubillah himin zalik. It just I think malay production should really take note about this. Our youth nowadays really going too far from norms of people and especially as a muslim.

Being too exposed to gadget also can bring harm. We as adult and parents apparently should monitoring their children excessively and aggrasively. Knowing what they watch and do. And, especially religious studies is a must. Insha Allah and pray also to Allah that our children always in His care and away from unhealthy culture which become too mainstream in our culture nowadays. Till then, xoxo.

Waalaikumussalam. 

Expected the unexpectedly.

Peace be upon you all. Assalamualaikum.


Alhamdulillah. I'm back in Egypt already. I'm 22 years old and fiancee to Mr. Syazaril Fathurrahman. What an  unexpected things and journey I had on this summer break. No matter how much your life, your world and your surrounding turns upside down. Always have faith that there's a reason He planned it to be like that. There's must be something that we need to see that shall bring us back to Him The Exalted.

I know what I 've been through this year as not much or as bigger as other people's grieves. But, it is a major turn over for me to change to be better. How grateful I am to be always in His care for as I'm being neglected that all along through out my life. I'm only realized it for a moment and then turn my back. Ya Allah. Forgives me for my sins previously, now even in the future.

Alhamdulillah. I manage to find my way back a bit by bit. I'm still learning now. Sew on patches to all my tear before.  And even grateful He gave me someone who always by my side, accepting the changing me when I don't even expecting to have one after what had happened. All praises to Allah, The Merciful. No words shall describes how grateful I am as what He gave me unexpectedly bind my heart towards Him even more and I always pray for someone who makes me loves and more closer to Our Creator.

Mercifully, His plan is the best. And seriously. Alhamdulillah. I'm never being this happy in my life. Everything went smoothly with His Might.  In a month, we already met both our family. And another month more, I'm already his fiancee also with His Might and His Merciful. People surround me really suprised to hear me getting engaged. Never crossed in their mind. And me also, never crossed in my mind when I'm going back to Malaysia this year, that He let me to meet someone, loves someone and become someone to someone so quickly. Where as that early time, I'm still fighting to stand, to cure the torn me.

Nevertheless, He knows the best. Now, I'm praying this till jannah. And ease our journey to be husband-wife. So many hearts to care off and so many things to be plan off. Basmallah. I'm praying that Allah always ease what the best for me and him as He planned it to be in the Luh Mahfuz. Amin. Till then. XOXO.

Waalaikumussalam.

~ E-Day~

Assalamualaikum

Atlast,I've got time to update with the e-day. Well. It was very tiring and long day for me as I've to clean up and settles it by myself. Left only me and the youngest at home. My mom and neighbors been busy cooking and all for the guests later For those who knows would understand my situation as at first it's just a risik. Suddenly about 3-2 days before, his mom and uncle called my parents to change it to engagement.

Well, can you guess?? I'm having mental breakdown that time. Quickly I send a messages to him saying that his side asking for an engagement not risik. He was so shocked as he currently at that time at platform in the middle of the sea in Labuan.We both speechless. And the most shocking news that even hard for me to accept is my dad agreed. I mean alhamdulillah, everything been in ease more than I expected it to be. :)

Well, then started the hectic days before Saturdays. Finding the outfit, hantaran, food, bouquet. I made all the hantaran especially the cakes and cookies. Because seriously got no time to buy things. Just gave things I can made and decorate the hantaran by myself. It do saves money people but the tiredness can't be compare off.

His side would come at 3 p.m. But, at 1.30 p.m I'm still in the middle of decorating the hantaran and touched here and there to make sure things perfect as what I want. Make-up??yeah. I make-up myself. That's so tiring. Indeed. Having to do most things myself was enjoying. I think enough chatting and reading wouldn't you think so??here's some pictures.

The Hantaran

Tepak Sirih

Cookies I made.

Cholocate gift from neighbors

This one also from neighbors

And this one too.

Tembikai agar-agar from my aunt.

Pandan layer cake which I baked.

Carrot cake I baked.

Th fruits.

Ring. By his mak ngah. Risik ring

This one is his mom. My future mother in-law. Insha Allah.

Because I'm trembling so much. lame and ashamed. :').

Overall it was definite a memory that I shall never forget. A new journey for me and him. And hoping for your prayers also till jannah. Insha Allah. People always said this period is a crucial one before getting married. Praying that both of us can go through this together with help from Allah and hoping for your prayers also for us. Insha Allah. amin. Till then. May Allah bless us all with barakah and guidance, prevent us from mazmumah things. Amin. XOXO.

Waalaikumussalam.