Sacrifices

Life's getting busy nowadays,

I've been trying to hop here and there trying to match my time with him.

Well. Indeed. LDR has always been tough to anybody peeps.

It do needs your unconditionally patience and sacrifices which is a lot.

As for me, as a student. I'm sacrificing my time to be flexible and let it parallel with him.

It's mainly because I know he got jobs and it would be quite difficult for him to do so.

Thus, I'm taking in charge on this. 

Well, sometimes I do admit when the emotional rush into my veins, 

feeling like wanting to talk to him about others. Well, you know just some random stuffs.

It's approximately to none I guess.

We'll always end up talking about his stressful jobs-life about his colleagues and boses.

How his colleagues take advantages of others, how his bos simply get mad on simple silly stuffs.

We do get lots of laugh from that.

I always want to be the one he talk to about this. The one who heard him every time.

Sometimes....

I get a bit upset because when I'm trying to talk to him about something

Mostly, will end up him saying, "Wait sayang, ada dicussion"

" Wait sayang, ada keja sikit"

I've been crying a lot to this kind of words before,

because I thought he wasn't there for me when I need him.

But, then. I'm realized it such a waste to get upset over merely on simple stuffs like this.

LDR needs sacrifices peeps, to argue and fight over something like this really cost a lot.

There are cases where eventually becomes reason of break-off.

So, you really need high tolerance especially if you students like me,

and you can gets lots of free time doing stuff merely for fun and enjoying your life,

and there's your other half working to his bone out to gives you a perfect life when you be together.

Appreciate peeps, patience peeps, be flexible peeps, be what he needs you to be,

because Love Always Makes It Simple.

Most and foremost because....

what he's been up to after all for all this while to make sure you be together with him forever later.

Thus, you can take in charge in sacrificing your buthurt moments to death and be cool about it.

Till then, xoxo. Have nice days ahead. 

Mature

Exams coming up in just two weeks more.But,here I am knocking on the keyboard

to type on new post. ( Don't follow this peeps )

Well, occasionally, there's really lots of going round and round my mind. 

( aihhh ) I can't just seems to do things any better than I did before.

Why oh why?? (keep on questioning)

But, then. My fiancee stood me up when he said I'm mature than before.

Well, literally. I can't seems to understand what he said.

( It's the old man thoughts speaking peeps. haha )

Now, suddenly it pop out my mind what he said to me before.

I guess that's why I can't seems to do things like I'm used to before.

Because back then ways I'm interpreting things and doing things in my life

were different than how I am now.

So foolish of me thinking I can do the same things like I'm used to.

I'm still growing up. I mean who does isn't it??

But, what I'm trying to say here is from our emotional and mind aspects.

This determine how we do works now which way differ than we used to when

like years ago.

Reminiscing the changes I've made. I guess it is.

It changed how me faced and deals things

It's not like I'm being hypocrite, not being myself, this just a change for something better.

Insha Allah. ( pray for me and you also! amin)

Well, it's always sweet to know someone paying every little things bout you.

It do flutters you. And, make you up above the roofs.

So, I'm approved. There's a proverb said,

 " A compliment can even makes whales dance "

Yeah. Imagining how the whale dance, makes me giggles.

But, here when his-old-man-kind-of-mind speaks to me. Its sweeps me off my feet.

Shows me that its wrong to have that kind of thoughts.

Thinking I can't do it anymore when the facts is I can.

It just I have new ways of doing things now. Yeahhhh!!!!

( wonder woman in me speaks )

I just have to enjoy and moves forward instead of clinging on the past me.

I just have to be done to past-me and strolling out new roads of new me.

Discovering the worlds, the thoughts, the adventures that awaits me

Embarks on new journey with this wonderful man by my side. Insha Allah.

He'll be the one whom guides me after this.

And praying Allah always care of my beloved parents and also his as what they care for both of us.

Amin.

Clingy

Things going smoothly since my last post on January.

 Oh my!! Now it's May already. What did I do to myself for the time being. haha!!

I'm back in Malaysia end of January for my winter break coz someone asked me to and 

of course I would be glad to spend time with him. Who don't isn't it?? 

With your fiance, especially when we being part for months.

That's absolutely a chance you'll never let it go. 

I'm quickly make up my mind when he said want me to go back. haha

Well Mr. you've got yourself a clingy fiancee ( thousands clap)

I admit, being far from him, it's really really really tough.

 (see just to bold the tough I've faced, I've to say the word really sooo many times)

Well, I'm pretty clingy to him I admit. Want to be with him all the time if I can.

Just rang off the video call with him on wechat, I already sent him whatssap saying that, 

" I miss you sayang". haha! Now , you tell me how am I have to survive after married later??

It's going to be another tough things to face.

I'm pretty much sure if I'm not pursuing my medical degree right now

And pursue other courses, without second thoughts would quit my job and be full housewife.

That's how I love him, always want to be by his side. Accompany him during long hours of drive

Massage his back of neck if he sleepy anytime, feed him food when we eat, 

Miss his tease on me every time he can when I'm with him. (well,that's a lot actually)

His care,his worried face when I'm sick. His effort to make me happy everytime.

His efforts to give me everythings I want. 

Erm. I think I should asked for Louboutin pump then, haha!!

(in your dreams, Nadia)

But, I think Giusippe Zanotti wedges possible. haha!!

Oh myyyyy!! I'm just missing him soooo much!!!

If I can, I would always want to hold his arms and hands all the time.

Walk by his side everywhere he goes, Sleep in his arms everynight.

I hope he noticed already he got himself quite a clingy fiancee.

But, he still loves me. Wow!!That's just makes me loves him more. 

Till then, focus on final . Then, WEDDING coming up. May Allah ease and bless everything.

Insha Allah. Amin.

~ The Journey~

Assalamualaikum.

Hari nie, nadia nak cakap menaip dan mennulis dalam bm pula. Haha. Sudah lama ditinggalkan. Sebenarnya, tak ada apa pun sangat nak update, tak tahu nak cakap pasal apa sebenarnya. Tapi, dah oleh kerana ada silent reader yang kadang-kadang tanya tak update blog ke? Ngade sesangat la kan. Macam tak contact dia. pfftt. So, hari nie, minggu pertama di tahun 2014. Mari la kita berjemaah update blog. hehe! Well, so far, memang ramai yang dah tahu nadia dah tunang dan yang masih terkejut dan yang tak tahu tiba-tiba tahu pun terus tanya nadia, betul ke tak pe semua? adoi. Korang amboi sangat ingat aku nie serious sangat tak fikir hidup berdua ke?

Well, macam my previous post. Memang semua yang jadi sangat unexpected. Tahun 2013 memang tahun yang paling banyak buat luka dan gembira at the same time. Orang cakap bittersweet. haha!! Nadia bersyukur dengan apa yang Allah S.W.T tentukan untuk nadia. Alhamdulillah. Dan berdoa moga Allah permudahkan segalanya dengan Izin-Nya. Sebab kita nie manusia yang sering lupa. Dan, benda yang jadi tunjuk yang Allah sayangkan kita dan Dia tahu yang terbaik untuk hidup kita dan tak jauh dari jalan-Nya.

Sebenarnya, sekarang tengah tunggu 'green light' dari ibu ayah untuk kahwin sebelum nadia graduate. Bagi nadia, Allah S.W.T berfirman. " Kun Fayakun ". Jadi, maka jadilah. Sejauh mana pun pilihan yang kita tentukan untuk diri kita, kita kena ingat Allah Maha Besar dan setiap sesuatu jadi dengan izin-Nya. Jadi, jika ibu ayah bagi 'green light', itu adalah dengan izin-Nya dan adalah yang terbaik untuk nadia, dan Dia tahu nadia boleh handle apa pun dugaan, ujian yang bakal tempuh di masa hadapan. Itu je yang nadia pegang. Bahawasanya, Allah Maha Mengetahui setiap sesuatu dan pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya yang Dia nak kita lihat dan nilai sendiri.

Bila dah kate nak kahwin awal nie, mesti ada pula yang tanya, boleh ke?? bahagi2 masa?? Bagi nadia tak ada masalah pun, sebab nadia so far alhamdulillah memang jenis sort things and fokus pada satu-satu. Hidup tak berubah sangat pun sebab nadia still teruskan belajar kat Mesir dan dia kerja di Malaysia. So, literally still the same macam waktu tunang nie, yang beza cuma status je, da jadi isteri orang. Adeh. Macam tak percaya pun ada. Sekarang, I'm in the journey to become someone's wife sooner or later. Insha Allah with His Might. Doakan erk?? amin.

Belajar pun makin banyak. Tapi, so far tengah fokus satu-satu. Prinsip sabar dalam menuntut ilmu. Itu yang nadia pegang dari dulu. Though,sometimes orang tengok macam nadia tak ambil kisah. Nadia akan fokus satu subjek dulu. Dah ok nadia rasa, baru nadia tukar fokus subjek lain. Even dapat test markah kadang-kadang tak membanggakan pun sebab nadia fokus subjek lain dulu dari yang ada test. Sebab bagi nadia kalau semua nadia nak capai dalam suatu masa, nadia takut, "Yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran". Sejak ambil medic, macam tu la nadia study, tension pun x. Sebab nadia tak kalut nak habiskan syllabus. 

Nadia rasa sampai sini je kut untuk hari nie. Tengah cari semangat nak study nie. Enjin tengah semput-semput lagi bila nak tukar ada NOS pun tak tahu la. Doakan nadia dapat fokus belajar dan dalam kehidupan nadia. ok??insha Allah. amin. dan doa' dapat graduate in time. Insha Allah. amin. XOXO.

Waalaikumussalam.

~4th Year~

Peace upon you all, Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah. Though heavy storm been pouring my journey of 3rd year in medicine faculty, I manage to succeed on to the next step of 4th year. Old days, about 3 years ago around 2010, looking at seniors who had been in my place right now, I envy them. Well, that time, 4th year seems so far for us. But, all praises to Allah The Merciful because He ease my journey till now and I'm praying for another 2 years more to complete my degree also with ease and flying colours. Insha Allah. Amin.

Starting my 4th year late. Spending more time in Malaysia. haha. And just recovered from fever and recurringly asthma attack due to weather change. Alhamdulillah. Now, I'm healthy as a horse. There's a proverb or an idiom says that, " An apple a day keeps the doctor away". What should I do?? I have to meet them all days during classes. I mean I'm a medicine students. Thus, it is legit that I don't want to keep them away. Moreover, I'm not very fond of apple. I don't know why. But, it just don't fit my taste bud.

I've got about 4-5 subjects this year. ENT ( ear,nose and throat), Ophthalmology
( study of eyes ), Forensic, Toxicology and last but not least Community Medicine. So far for me, ophthalmology is in my gene. I can say it like that because its interesting and I'm enjoying the class and also with forensic and toxicology. That's because I think its fascinating when all the CSI and Bone series that I've been watching since ages now makes sense. Funny isn't it??. Community Medicine or the acronym is 'commed' quite bored because I've to deal back with the calculator and calculus where as the main reason I took medicine is to avoid all that. Pity me. Luckily just the normal stuff about variance,mean and etc.

The main obstacle for me now is ENT. The doctors who has been teaching were quite uninteresting. Though, there are few of them, I'm enjoying their classes. But, when it comes to see the patients, I don't know, look into someone's ear makes me tingling all over. I rather seeing patient's with eye problems rather than ear and nose. Have to overcome this. Been trying and praying to do so. So, I guess that's all for now about my early journey for 4th year and I've got mid term examination and praying for me, Umie Nadiah Shalahuddin to do well and excellent. Insha Allah. Amin. Till then, xoxo.

Waalaikumussalam.